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There's this girl i know... and she is probably the only one reading this entry... because she is the only reason i am writing this entry.. I don't go on livejournal anymore, and i haven't read anything on live journal let alone posted anything since september and then... i saw her the last day of school, and she asked me to read her livejournal, and she said it was important. and in my head i thought, its highschool drama and i dont want to hear about it. but then i received a comment on myspace... from that girl, and again, the plea to read her livejournal... and i thought again to myself, its highschool drama... i don't want to know about it. but something, whatever it was, prompted me to read... she has cervical cancer. that's not highschool. nor is it drama. its scary. if i prayed, she'd be in my prayers. but i don't believe in God. so i don't pray. but she's in my heart and in my hopes. that's all i can offer... that and my support, which is provided to anyone should they ask for it. and my advice, which is given solicited or not to anyone who can communicate. you, and you know who you are, are in my thoughts. goodluck
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[19 Sep 2006|03:51pm] |
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Speaking of art, i dig my art class.. i skimped today. BAD LEANNA. but it was a very productive and enjoyable period.. though not for the class itself. Lester might be irritated with my lack of tact today. Tice. Bucharia. Lunch? Sweda. Baumiller. Lester. Zhoumas. Johston. Johnston's getting married, and so have about four or five other teachers.. that i know about! whats with everyone and tying the knot? o_O anyway, i finished our first quiz/project in graphic design today.. first one finished. Under three minutes ~_^ who kicks ass? yes. lol. i realized that since school started for me, i've thought less of *insert boy's name here* the one that made me put the pudding back lol... i miss him, hes an awesome kid.. but i've also realized that things between him and i can't progress to more than smooches and fun stuff. we're buddies, i dont think anything more will come from us.. which kind of stinks, but i'm pretty okay with it. i noticed that it's my senior year and i've become apathetic about the morons i attend school with, i talk to a lot of people but the congregation of people i allow to call my "friends" is a lot smaller than it used to be.. i'm either less popular or more particular. before i go and get heavy with philosophy i'm gonna get a jump on my bible project for AP Lit. Tice is a madwoman, a brilliant madwoman.. but a madwoman. i'm fluctuating between loving and despising her. and now to my departure
goodbye twelve, goodbye thirteen.. hello love.
Leanna
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[16 Sep 2006|06:06pm] |
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Hello my dears,
I've been hella busy lately! I haven't had any time to update.. which I guess isn't horrible XP. I'm loving senior year, I still can't believe I'm a senior! Jinkies. Anyway, I'm loving most of my classes, but there is a LOT of work.. many hours spent with text books and my best-friend the interweb. Right now I am in the middle of some forced manual labor, which will be followed by AP Psyche homework, AP Lit homework x 3, and drawing for my portfolio.. speaking of portfolio ^__^ Boy. that is all. Boy's are nice... yep.. nice. nice boys. fun. yes. Moving on. XP CVS has been affectionately re-named the soul sucking instituion of doom, when I think of an actual acronym I'll be sure to add it on. College stuff = rad. Buddies= multiplying but I'm trying to keep tight with the forever important ones.. speaking of which I spent a few hours with Candice today, that girl is my sister. I couldn't get rid of her if I tried. It would be awesome if we went to the same college, which.. actually could happen; Sarah, Candice and myself could theoretically attend the same college... because UB has everyones majors. Next order of business.. my buddy's coming up to NY around my b-day so I'll be taking that friday off to go see him =) and that Saturday looks like its going to be my birthday excersion. which will be awesome :D. Well it looks like that's all I have time for, I've got to get going on all this work I must do.. I am hoping to finish most of it tonight so that I don't have much to do tomorrow.. its Uncle Ev's unveiling.. for those of you who don't know- in the Jewish tradition you dont put a stone on a grave until one year after burial... I'm sad. I miss him.
Gotta Book... literally,
Leanna
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[27 Aug 2006|01:27am] |
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PeskyPisky15 (1:19:43 AM): boys will be the end of me
Copernicus IXXI (1:19:51 AM): stick to girls
PeskyPisky15 (1:20:02 AM): hmm
Copernicus IXXI (1:21:28 AM): stop taunting me with cookies
Auto response from PeskyPisky15 (1:21:28 AM): Come to the Dark Side... We have cookies!
Copernicus IXXI (1:21:30 AM): im hungry
PeskyPisky15 (1:22:39 AM): lol sorry
Copernicus IXXI (1:24:00 AM): its alright
PeskyPisky15 (1:24:36 AM): <3
Copernicus IXXI (1:24:39 AM): keep trying with guys for alittle longer
PeskyPisky15 (1:25:04 AM): lol
Copernicus IXXI (1:25:09 AM): and whenever one of them is too stupid to see how wonderful you are you come to me and ill take care of you
Copernicus IXXI (1:25:23 AM): then you can go lesbian
andrew. billy. candice.
thank you.
and you.... stop making me a fool!!!!
wish me luck in taming my stupid foolery,
Leanna
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| matters are the heart? |
[27 Aug 2006|12:24am] |
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PeskyPisky15 (12:18:36 AM): he actually makes me so happy that i put the pudding back in the fridge!
findpolarisXx (12:18:40 AM): boy crazy
findpolarisXx (12:18:47 AM): 0_0
findpolarisXx (12:18:51 AM): ...
findpolarisXx (12:18:53 AM): no way.
im screwed
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| goodbye 12 goodbye 13 hello love |
[23 Aug 2006|10:30pm] |
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hey everyone,
i just got home from my college visits! i had a lot to say but it seems that ive had to relay the message so much to the people who imed me the minute i signed on that my brain at its exhausted and defused state cannot organize my thought process fully enough to give all the details.. to anyone whose interested in how that went, drop me a line and ill be more than ecstatic to tell you more that you want to know about what i did/saw/now need to do. w00t. time to go catch up with all the people who are flashing on my screen
Love,
Leanna
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| my secrets |
[18 Aug 2006|02:55am] |
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For those of you just tuning in... i'm trying to make a blog specifically for poetry, which is what will be in the "my secrets" link that you (probably) clicked... its not working right now, so i've got a chain of programmers (including myself) playing with it.. why is livejournal such a pain in the ass?! i'm actually considering just making my own site.. but we'll see.
anyway, enjoy what poetry you can find in here.. i have too many entries and a lot of personal things, that are really blog entries, but i dont expect you'll be too interested in much.
signing out,
Xiu Liang
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| for those of you who dont recall, an old favorite causing boundaries to fall |
[17 Aug 2006|02:30am] |
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A poem about flesh
A touch, a tease
you've got me down on my knees
trembling and nearly insane
pleasure bordering on pain
the look in your eyes as mine they meet
you're looking at me like i'm something to eat
my body quakes as all of me you take
your hands explore i'm wanting more
i feel a rush as over my skin your fingers brush
and my cheeks begin to flush
your weight on top of me is almost too much
i can barely handle the heat from your touch
our breath is mingling
my flesh is tingling
(from my will to please
i feel your release)
~ FaerieGirl
I never did make any real changes to this.. i'm looking at it now and i think it needs more. Let's play a little shall we?
(an hour later:)
Lust
a touch, a tease
you've got me down on my knees
trembling and nearly insane
pleasure bordering on pain
a slip of tongue
sweet movement among
the darkest of dips
forceful grinding hips
a surrender to the aching desire
the heat below, a burning fire
a deepthroat ironhanded grasp
a sudden surpising [high pitched] gasp
a passionate moment of [our] eyes meeting
any cautious thoughts are swiftly fleeting
and dangerously you lie before me
an open invitation for me to take of freely
the efficacy is beyond intoxicating
my inhibitions completely evaporating
coercion down this unknown path
engulfs me like a boiling bath
drenched in sweat and screaming carnal
like a trembling virgin parnel
shake away the abhorred cast
this newfound voracity rising fast
driving deep and clawing skin
swollen and sore, throughout and within
your body marked by my endeavors
fit tight and perfect, mine never severs
a fervent aphroditic gaze
through the thick and concupiscent haze
my skin hums in response to your spry fingers
while on my lips your lascivious kiss lingers
~Vixen
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[16 Aug 2006|01:12am] |
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A meretricious frame
to cast perfection
of that which is taboo to mention
for me a dream is unfullfilled
replaced with a fate i'd never willed
the moments of truth have passed before me
too scared that i would be left empty
a hesitation on my part
has left me with a broken heart.
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The race and flutter of
an unsure runners heart
doth bear a keen resemblance
to that of mine
when my eyes had procured
on thine
O sweet malady
O aching heart
my surrender to this illness
is my sanity's depart
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O core of life
O soul unwritten
thy past pain of strife
and future unbidden
O solidatrity to
Human cast
an uknown future
a borrowed past
and if this light should tomorrow end
i pray
to my worldly questions
the answers send.
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To think that i have long since passed
the battle that seemed forever to last
That the sun would soon again shine
for glorious happiness to be finally mine
It has been some time since every momnent was indeed
stolen for thought of injuried obtained on a valiant steed
and since the end has long been nigh
the tale of sunder been a call from on high
a new beginning has come forth
the waking of a new born Earth
for ever seed planted by those deaths
came swift a wind for new born breaths.
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Distant memories are
fleeting and unbound
causing a mindfull wondering
of my past endeavors
as someone who was not me
or was i myself and
simply have no recollection
following my death?
O greater something do send me my
answers, for it seems that
i was not even as i of
this life, or better yet
another
to question dangerously where
i once lived
as who
and what
and when
but further still disturbing is
my feeling of dichotomy
Perchance another fate
endure
or sleep eternal
sweet and sure.
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there was another but it is too personal to put down. most of these were just random thoughts strewn together, none i think are really any good.. but let me know what you think of them, interpret them if you'd like.
<3
Eternally,
Xiu Liang
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| I'm tired... from exploring you |
[10 Aug 2006|08:35pm] |
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Dear Diary,
So Skittles was supposed to come stay over tonight but was forced to bail due to a last minute church meeting. I'm disapointed, but today ended up being very interesting. Captain Planet came to play today, he came at a little before 400. We started "Young Frankenstein" and ate Pizza Bagels and drank glasses of water. Shortly after 430 Ska came by, we continued watching the movie, ate Cherries, had a nice time. Rob grew again. ^__^ we talked about people's heights. It has been decided that I am the perfect Leanna-height. teehee. Captain Planet got called to leave at around 6, i walked him out and he tried to kiss me, but i shot him down. There are a number of reasons why I did this... I'm learning a lot right now... about not getting attached but not being something i dont want to be.. and I'm learning to give people chances.. I'm still not sure how I feel about this new chapter... Peter Pan rivals against the to-be-Manhattan-Chic. Another reason I suppose is that I recently kissed someone else... someone who I find myself attracted to. Yes, he is another one of those oh-no's, but what can I say? I like this guy. So, sorry Captain Planet, better luck next time. After he left I spent about another hour and a half... maybe two hours considering, alone with Ska. I love him. I'm petrified of losing him from my life... I have to say goodbye to him this year... I'm dreading that. I almost found his ticklish spot, I was very proud of myself ^__^.
Silently,
Faerie
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[10 Aug 2006|02:31am] |
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Dear Diary,
Tonight I was looking at the closest thing I've ever come to porn for me. Calvin Klein and Abercrombie models. I'm relearning how to breathe. Its times like this I can't doubt my heterosexuality; not to say that women aren't nice too.. believe me I like those too-they can be yummy.. but man do I like boys!!!
Thats all.
Naughtiy,
Vixen
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hey all, i'm working on a new layout for my journal.. so right now its on the boring side. :(
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[08 Aug 2006|11:59pm] |
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Dear Diary,
I love being terrible. I love getting what I want, and knowing that I can have what I want. I love knowing that I will get what I desire. its brilliant.
I'm skating over thin ice and loving the feel of the blade cutting through and moving me swiftly. I feel like I'm flying.
Naughtily,
Vixen
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[03 Aug 2006|10:58pm] |
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i dont like not being able to control the outcome of things. i know that i can make things right in my life.. i can take care of myself.. its other people i worry about. theres a lot of them. why wont they ever listen to me?
this is my last year of highschool. i know i wont know many of my "friends" a year from now. i'm only scared about four. four people mean the most to me of all my friends. if you dont know with every molecule of my being that i love you and would do anything for you, then its probably not you.
i have a confession to make.. i'm afraid to lose him. i feel like i'm already losing him.. i know i'm important to him, i'm his sibling-type-person.... Leanna sandwhich girl. i'm his. he's hers, and i accept that. im happy for him. green with envy.. but i'm happy for him, he deserves to be happier than anyone can spell. i just hope that he doesnt forget about me in his happiness. if i didnt call him or come find him.. would he miss me? would he seek me out? last summer we spent every day together.. this summer i've seen him four times.. maybe. he means a lot to me.. hes very important, and i love him. is that enough?
two of them are my sisters. i'm honestly not fearful at all of losing them.. i know they will be there, only a phone call or an instant message away. i have faith that they will be by my side for as long as i do so. because of them.. i am not afraid.
and a brother is a brother forever. i dont think i could get rid of him if i tried... which i did, and hes still here! and i love him all the more for it.
my last year in highschool...
what an awfully big adventure i have waiting for me... in just one more year.
hold my breath, count the seconds.. savor my last moments of childhood. my last moments in my protective bubble before i'm tossed out into the ring without a harness. oh sure, theres a safety net underneath me... there always will be. but i never want to fall back on it. i want to fly. i will.
sweep. dance. fly. paint the sky.
i feel an adventure coming on
i sense the start of a game
dont tell me the rules
they were made only for me to defy
emotions rage, burn like the sun
dance like a flame
shine like a jewel
run. inspire. climb. be devine.
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[27 Jul 2006|11:18pm] |
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i miss Kerri and Chrystal. other people i miss: Andrea, Mike, Mook, Shades, Mo, Tree, Jason, Matt, Carolyn, and other people who i know never read this.. i was just thinking about it while i was reading my friends page. i havent talked to Chrys in forever.. i miss her a lot. and Kerri. those two girls and i were tight at one point.. they did some really great things for me and i appreciate it more than i ever really tell them.. and probably ever will. but they've both got me on my friends so they'll know from reading this... but. blah.. i dont want to get all sappy and sentimental.. so i'm outie for now.
today was a cranky zonkey day. the first in a while. which is good. tomorrow will be better, i have off from work. i have off from teresa and the kids. i might be able to see the best friend and the "brother" or maybe ill call and see if i can catch a cousin or two and a couple of boys. we'll see how it rolls.
didnt go to sleep until 430 this morning because i had to finish season two.. if you know what i'm talking about.. well then im sorry that you had to hear me go on and on and on about it for probably close to twenty minutes. lol
FIN
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So... SOMEBODY who shall remain nameless *cough* Kerri *cough* nudged me. for those of you who don't know what a nudge is... its this annoying little email that says that you haven't posed a blog entry in x time so hey.. you should go do that. lol, ^_^ made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. so here we go.. a quick entry for anyone who missed me, which is probably just Kerri. =) she's such a doll, i love that girl.
ive been working a lot at the store; i like it there, i have a lot of fun. im considering moving into photo, but i'm a little skeptical.. i kind of like what i'm doing now. i left a note for my store manager about the possibility of recycling, we're going to talk about my possible transfer and the recycling issue when im next in on wednesday. i have a crush on one of my managers. oh, yea, not only is he one of my managers.. he also has a girlfriend so0o0o... needless to say- its aggrivating. we're doing this competition thing, apparently my store is on the top ten list of the best of LI, everyone says its all me.. makes me feel all giggly and giddy lol. enough about work.
i finally got to watch Memoirs of a Geisha, i read the book ages ago and was supposed to see the movie in theatres.... n months later and voila! i liked the book better, but the movie was good... i liked that they didnt kill it lol, thats always a good thing! the chairman is played by a man who was in two other movies that i've seen, in roles that i love. Mortal Kombat and The Last Samurai. <3
last night Goober slept over... and by slept i mean didnt sleep lol. it was good, we wanted to do so many things but we ended up just talking so much that we didnt get that much done. thats how things are with her, i've known her for almost six years, shes like my sister. my "sisters" are skittles and goober, my "brother" is blacksteve and of course theres a title for ska... what exactly it is will always be unclear. speaking of friends, ive been out to bayshore a few times recently.. i've been trying to make it less that they invite me out there for several reasons. going out there might actually be even more difficult now i've come to be in a very precarious situation, nothing i can't handle. apsh i am catwoman hear me roar! nothing that goes on out there can bring me down too hard, i know i've got stability in medford.. and if anything really bad happens, steve and rob will break their legs lmao. i'd like to go into detail about whats going down over there.. but the jodi reads this and i dont want her to worry. Hi Jodi! i love my cousin, actually i love my cousins, Matt and Jodi rock the casbah... la sigh. brentwood. i think the foundation of all of this is that that whole group has known eachother forever and a year, their issues have intertwined and their history is so convoluded that its just a miracle that they are all still friends.. but the way that they are set up its so easy for an outsider to walk in and step on a trap... trying to be a part of that could blow up in someone's face... can we all guess who the someone who's trying is? sometimes i question whether i even should. i love being with them, Matthew, Jodi, Tiana, Eddie, Hope, Dragon, Billy, Germ, and Fred.. the cousin's i know i can rely on.. if for any reason i dont continue coming to brentwood for the friends.. i know i'll always have family there. the friends i listed are the ones i'm awfully fond of.. and i trust them to talk to me even if i show my face less.
im officially a dinosaur of PatMed High.. i'm a goddamn SENIOR... WTF!? *insert freaking out here* actually not so much. it just doesn't feel real yet. i'm excited about going to college next fall. im going to look at campuses soon... scholarship stuff and all that. i need to make a portfolio of my work >_<. i think there are actually people i know at every school im applying to... or rather, every SUNY school. Buffalo and Brockport - Goober's applying at also(although she really wants to go somewhere else i can't remember the name of), Albany...... no comment. Oneonta- Ryan. blegh. Albany and Oneonta are schools i'm not too thrilled with. i also dont want to go to a college, i want to go to a university.. so i'm not ecstatic about brockport. if i go suny it'll probably be Buffalo, and Andrew's up there.. so i'll have someone lookin out for me XP.
oh i love it when i look at my buddy list and see someone i want to im and then they im me.. i feel so damn loved! ive been having this wonderful loved experience lately.. when everyone i want to hang out with wants to hang out with me and i get phone calls and ims and emails.. i guess this is one of those precious and rare times in life when things are just.. nice. oh wait, no its called summer- school starts in September and i'll have to do work again >_< im going to have to bust my ass this year... juggling work, school, the mass amounts of homework i'll have from my wonderful ap courses, community service (i still havent made my way over to youth council yet.. but if im not working next week i'm definitely going!), making a portfolio, making the website, classes, and the workout schedule i intend to stick to. w00h00 for no time! since i insist on having a social life.. i suppose i'm going to have to cut out sleep XP. i'll figure something out. things will be... interesting if not fun.
this is the part where i have too many ims open to continue an entry, so.... thanks for caring Kerri and i hope this is some sort of a look into whats going on in my life right now. miss you girl.
xoxo
Vixen
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| CUNT written by woman who is a lesbian and a feminist |
[12 Jul 2006|11:09pm] |
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"You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars. You have a right to be here, and whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should."
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grey clouds over a moonless night
where have all the stars gone?
the water shimmers in darkness
a lake surrounded by the dark shadows of the forrest
a stirring in the deep
movement in the distance that awakens a primal instinct within me
run
or should i fight?
fight or flight syndrome... why am i experiencing this now?
hear me heavens, release the light
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release me from my cage, oh captor
unbind my wrists, unchain my shackled limbs
take off my encumberments
undo the gag
let me loose
let me free
free to fly, far and fast and hard
over all of these troubled waters
let me solve my riddles
let me be strong
true, its not some of my best work.. theres a lot going on. why is it that dilema follows me everywhere? oh new york, how you plague me so.. i love new york, im not too keen on the issues following me from the island. my poor buddies are having a hard time, a lot of people who i wish i could physically be there for.. but jesus, i'm hundreds of miles away. ive also got some of my own stuff, as.. well none of you know. i think there is one person who actually understands most of whats going on. i need to enjoy my vacation.. tomorrow is amusement park day, which sparked the discussion with this great guy... we'll call him Germ (ask if you need to), anyway.. Germ is kickass, i think he rocks the casbah. lol, we talked about amusement park rides. i like talking to him, we've been talking a lot lately.. about all kinds of things.. okay well here i go again ,i'm not going to launch into talking about the boys.. there are too many to give equal time to and have a life over here >_< lol. most of the time i love my life.. bah, early wake up tomorrow so i ought to get going.
peace, love and happiness<3
viva la revolution
-Fae
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| Travel Day! |
[10 Jul 2006|12:50am] |
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Hey y'all! missing new york terribly and i've only been in my final destination for a few hours. blagh, i hate the south!!!! i'm such a city girl i dont belong anywhere near the country! i miss everyone, while driving today i had such a memory trip it was splendid. im really happy with where i am in my life ya know? great stuff, busy, fun, happy.. and all that jazz ~_^. i came online tonight and was bombarded with much love, and got to talk with a lot of my favorite people.. not all of them though. i got caught by a jodi which was a pleasant surprise, and i was imed by someone else i was very pleasantly and equally very surprised by... there was also a repeat act from someone who i met a year ago, and didnt ever get to hang out with much. irony. good stuff. hmm... enough about today i guess, cause my brain is wiped... i do remember pieces of yesterday though.. lol, despite my eleven hours in a car with my mother i am both alive and can remember yesterday better than today hahaha. well today is mostly a blur due to the mass driving and such.. yesterday was Carolyn's Grad party.. i think i might have written that already but i dont remember whether i did or not >_< see what i mean? starfish girl! im so happy that blacksteves down with the brother role, its unbelievable comforting. going off on a tangent, i love being with my boys.. any and all of them, i know there are many but god they are great friends! i dont know what i'd do without them.. some of them im going to try to hold on to for as long as i can.. without holding on too tightly, i'm having an issue with that with one such boy.. you all know who he is. it'll be okay. while we're talking about boys, i met one at Carolyn's. Cute, kind of quiet. definitely mission worthy.. the mission? have a conversation with him so i can find out if hes friendworthy XP lol, i'm sure he is.. anyone whose cool enough to chill with carolyn (with the exception of Connor) is friendworthy. dont get me wrong, Connor's an okay kid.. hes just.. Connor, i wouldnt go out of my way to hang out with him. i had a really great time at the party, all goodness and what not. fun fun. w00t. and now i'm starting to ramble because i've been awake for like... twenty hours blaedugh, its not a record for me but its getting to the point where my brain is all mushy from the stuff from today. so i'm gonna go finish my convos with all those people who are lovin me this early in the morning and maybe try to get some sleep.. i dont know how i'll do it without the sounds of cars going by. hmm, well. i miss you all in New York.. tell my baby i love her.
xoxo
Vixen
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Hey everybody, i'm leaving the state in less than eight hours.. how the fuck am i going to survive eight days with my mother!? i'll be online now and then while im down there... bah, i cant go more than thirtysix hours without touching a machine.. lol. so if you love me you can message me or something.. ive got to go try and get some sleep..
bye everyone!!!
<3
Leanna
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